I'm a good person, I swear

I just do stupid shit sometimes. :(

And she saw that they were the color of opals, moss, and drool

Don't ask.


The past few entries have been pretty happy and/or lighthearted. This one is irritable. I seem to be in a state of personal limbo. I either don't know exactly what I want out of life, or I don't know how to get it. And seeing that I don't know which of those is the truth of the matter, I'm a bit frustrated. I seem to have no sense of direction, and yet I want to go in every direction.

I want to have that fun, chaotic Seattle lifestyle.. filled with mishaps and hilarity and friends. I want tattoos and art and coffee and music, in no particular order. I don't want to be sitting here at night, listening to Nathan type away.. not wanting any of these same things.

But then again, I probably just want too much. =/

Whyyy

I downed that coffee way too fast, and now I'm all shaky and icky.

HATE THAT.

Whoo.

I should probably feel like crap right now, but it's a beautiful day to be hung over.

The party at Jessie's was SO much fun.. and I can actually remember most of it, so that's a good sign.


Tom foolery aside, I can safely say I know there are some big changes on the horizon for me. I know this will come outwardly because I can already feel them inwardly. I know I'm the same basic person. I'm not afraid of turning into someone new.. or at least, I know it won't happen. But I am becoming increasingly ready to embrace more then I already am. This sounds vague, I know. But to write it down is helping me understand it a little better.


Time for to be workingz.

Foggy blanket of awesome

Gloomy day! I love it.. it's perfect out. Slightly rainy, not too cold. Perfect.

I have this complex of always wanting to make things on days I have to work. It drives me insane. I need to better schedule my creative outlet time. Or this pattern will continually make me want to throw things.

I don't mind working, I just want to to be making.


Also, I once again give up on long hair.. time to go whack it off before work.

Lazy summer days

I haven't had a lot to say here lately.

Some things I like to just keep in my head, I guess. Or at least between a very select amount of close friends.

This week has been a very.. hedonistic experience. Aside from work, I've basically just been as lazy and self-fulfilling as possible. And if I -should- feel guilty about it, I totally don't. I feel like lately, I've actually been acting my age. Not trying to be anything more mature or different then what I actually am. It's kind of nice. Probably temporary, but still an enjoyable experience.



I just had two days off, so now it's time to go back to work. Being out of school means not having a whole lot of set goals. But that's okay too.. I look forward to seeing what life is going to throw at me while I'm a little more relaxed. I think more opportunities happen this way then people realize.

:D

Well, this week is going REALLY REALLY GOOD.

That's all that needs to be said.

Happy finals

I'm already done with this week, and it's only been a few hours. Once my neck gets better (AGAIN) I'm sure it won't seem so bad. I don't even know how I possibly could have injured it this time, but it hurts like hell and when I walk I look like there's something mentally wrong with me.
I don't want to do any more finals, I don't want to clean the damn house, I don't want to go to work and have that fat cow boss me around. I want to do something for ME. I mean, I guess I am doing all of these things for me. But none of them make me particularly happy right now.


This weekend at Pike I went into this coffee shop that brings in new art by local people every month. I want to have paintings to hang in there.. that would be so great! But the paintings in there currently are a few notches above my skill level. And it's not like I time to do any damn art right now anyways.

At least last night was kind of peaceful. We watched the latter end of that movie Enchanted. It's dorky but it always lifts my spirits a little.

Okay, time to clean.. :(

It's okay to fall alittle

If you're already planning how to get back up before you hit the ground.

Organization

is the theme of today.

Place it all into little corresponding groups, clean it up, put it in places that make sense, and keep it that way.

Why is this so difficult for people to do?