I can't properly articulate how I feel at this precise moment. It's somewhere between really good and kind of worried.. swaying back and forth between those two extremes. For so many years I've wanted my desire to make art to make sense, and to not feel like it's a complete waste of time. Or money. I feel like the answer is somewhere close by, and that excites me. I think the worry is me thinking I might be let down by what I do (or don't) discover.
We'll see. I must continue to focus on it for a reason.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Capitol Hellian
Not really. But I do live on Capitol Hill now.
To summarize- shitty house with cheap rent, no money to speak of, working as much as possible. But when I come home (or to Glenn's house) every day exhausted, it's a happy, relived sort of exhausted. I'm no longer reliant on Nathan for food or money or anything. It doesn't seem like a milestone achievement, but I'm so much happier lately. I like having my own space again. Even if I'm not home very often.
Things have changed quite a bit since the last time I've written here. Nathan now lives by Uwajimaya, and is working on some really huge projects with his company. I saw him today, and he helped me collect the last of my things to bring to my new place. I'm glad we're still friends. We weren't right for eachother, but he's a good guy.
Tomorrow Glenn and I are going to Bellingham to visit his parents for his dad's birthday. I know the name "Glenn" is unfamiliar to this blog (unless I've ever written about our silly work antics.. oh how I miss them) but rest assured, he is quite wonderful. Every day I wake up smiling, thinking of whatever adventures we have planned for when I get off work (even if it's just watching cartoons and making dinner for eachother).
Life feels a bit directionless right now. But it's still really really good.
Time to go to 15th Ave Coffee (Secretly owned by Starbucks) for some amazing green tea and live music.
To summarize- shitty house with cheap rent, no money to speak of, working as much as possible. But when I come home (or to Glenn's house) every day exhausted, it's a happy, relived sort of exhausted. I'm no longer reliant on Nathan for food or money or anything. It doesn't seem like a milestone achievement, but I'm so much happier lately. I like having my own space again. Even if I'm not home very often.
Things have changed quite a bit since the last time I've written here. Nathan now lives by Uwajimaya, and is working on some really huge projects with his company. I saw him today, and he helped me collect the last of my things to bring to my new place. I'm glad we're still friends. We weren't right for eachother, but he's a good guy.
Tomorrow Glenn and I are going to Bellingham to visit his parents for his dad's birthday. I know the name "Glenn" is unfamiliar to this blog (unless I've ever written about our silly work antics.. oh how I miss them) but rest assured, he is quite wonderful. Every day I wake up smiling, thinking of whatever adventures we have planned for when I get off work (even if it's just watching cartoons and making dinner for eachother).
Life feels a bit directionless right now. But it's still really really good.
Time to go to 15th Ave Coffee (Secretly owned by Starbucks) for some amazing green tea and live music.
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